You're gonna have to bear with me on this post...'cause I'm not sure where I'm going with it:/
I think I'm doin' a bit of soul searching...
Let me start at Sunday morning. I went downstairs, made some tea, served up some bacon and eggs, and sat down to read the paper. (Yes, I am a dinosaur who actually reads the paper every morning...Chicago Sun Times and New York Times to be exact.)
I get to The New York Times Magazine, which I always thumb through just to look at the insane real estate that's listed in the back...thumb...thumb...thumb...and then
I don't know why my first reaction was to toss the magazine on the sideboard behind me and dive into my eggs...but that's what I did.
Then...two minutes later...I'm like..."This is my business. I am a blogger, and blog designer. I should totally be reading that article."
I pick it up and start reading. At first it's all...blah...blah...blah. Dooce is the mega social media queen who brought Maytag to their knees...rehash I already know, without really following. Then...BAM!
"Her site brings in an estimated $30,000 to $50,000 a month or more - and that's not counting revenue from books, speaking fees, and Verizon and HGTV gigs." Ummmmm....what!?!
I mean...I knew sites like Dooce and Pioneer Woman made money, but shut the shmuck up!!!:O
I found myself being bitter the rest of the morning:/ Why was I so bitter?
It's not like I'm even in that game. I had the realization long ago, that my money came blog design, and not my personal blog. My personal blog was for me to enjoy.
I. Enjoy. Doing. It.
I genuinely enjoy torturing my cat by practicing my photography on him, chronicling the escapades of Miss Peach and The Little Man, and whatever else I choose to blog about...so why was I so bitter?
I've given this a lot of thought...was I jealous? I mean...that was my first assumption...It must be jealousy:/
Truth is...I'm not jealous. I think Dooce and Pioneer Woman are very talented bloggers. I'm. Not. Jealous. Of. Them.
Now...I'm a serious hard working person...and I think my problem is...I'm wrestling with the notion that perhaps I don't take my blog seriously. I'm not sure that's what it is...but it's how I feel. I hear about other folks having blogging success and I think..."perhaps I was hasty in writing off my blog as just enjoyment for me..." That being said...I'm not sure I'm right on this...
I think it's just the hard working results girl that is saying to myself..."You shouldn't choose between your personal blog and blog design...You should be successful at both." (Yeah...I'll get right on that with all the spare time I have:/)
I'm not sure where to leave this other than to say..."I don't think you measure a successful blog by how much traffic it gets, or how much money it makes." My problem isn't with other blogs, it seems to be with how I treat my personal blog...Hmmmm...I think that's my issue...
Does any of this make sense??? Should you be charging me as a therapist? Perhaps;P