I'm having a bit of a freak out:/
It really bugs me, since I would think that most people would just shut up, be happy about it, and kick their feet up...
Might it be an identity crisis?
Here's the thing...I know we are just starting summer, and I'm going to be uber busy chasing the kidlets around since I haven't chosen to send them to day camps. That being said...I'm kinda freaking out about a few months down the road when *gulp* The Little Man starts preschool.
I'm going to have both kiddos in school in the fall...BOTH!
This means six hours a day...to myself. Don't get me wrong...I am super psyched about the idea of free time. I have spent the last five years chasing Miss Peach and The Little Man around. Now, I have no idea how to handle time to myself:/
I kinda want to get back to the business of having a career again. Quite frankly, I'm not sure what to do with these feelings. Don't laugh, but I really think we "mommy bloggers" are a savvy group. I think we are qualified to be social media experts. We have mastered the integration of blogs, Twitter and Facebook, as well as the ins and outs of stats and driving traffic to our sites. I gotta think that's a marketable skill...no?
While I love social media...there's this little voice in the back of my head that wants to actually pursue illustration. Problem is...I don't really know what that is. I've been creating images for "mommy blogs" for over two years now, and I've built up quite a portfolio. So what is the next step? What is the logical next step for a blog designer?
I feel like since I'm self taught, somehow I'm won't fit in a job environment. (I know that sounds crazy...but it's still a fear in my chest)
It's not even like I want to have an actual job that I go to...I like the freelance lifestyle...I don't know...I'm feeling anxious:/
Whew...feels good to get that off my chest.
Now if you'll excuse me...I need to go put sunglasses on my cat;P